a check-up

not a bad day, not as if I was expecting one. But all things considered, I was able to accomplish a few of the tasks I put before me, still constantly reminded of an UTI that goes away and returns as often as I say my middle name. Hopefully this week I will have x-rays and an ultra sound to determine where the problem is, how it might be repaired and/or the type of medication that will relieve my symptoms that keep me close to the ca mode, tears in my eyes, as the pain is past severe more times than not.

I continue to believe that the amount of medication I am consuming on a daily basis cannot be helping the situation as their is no time for my UTI's to heal as I feel well for a day or two only for the symptoms to return just as fierce as before.

Definitely my energy level has been affected but the diease process itself is draining and I am the first to admit that I do not take the time to rest properly, believing that day is coming soon enough. Still, I know the importance of taking care of the little I have left so I can continue to surprise the critics and keep others believing that I am playing a sick joke on all those that have given so graciously over my lifetime. And, unfortunately and against my liking, against my aporroval, people who believe they know me or have hints about me will doubt the seriousness of my illness not because I joke about as therapy but because they are ignorant and lack the knowledge to know better, think better and understand a very complicated disease process.