My thoughts have been running, run fast and running far. Far , far away but I still think them and am unable to let them go. I am trying to balance my energy, but my thoughts are disallowing it, temporarily I think , but still, something new and different and quite uncomfortable for me to experience.

I went to slumber early last night and awoke several times in nightmares, being chased, being smothered and finally not being at all. Each time I awoke, I went outside and walked in the wet grass, the mud, and tried to re-focus and re-balance but was unable.

Today I continue to think and wonder and my person is not proud, my mind full of even more questions and my heart wondering why? Tell me why.